Small Successes: Dinner with work friends

I went out to dinner tonight with four people from work. Part of me making more of an effort to socialise more and do normal-er things because i know that in the past, I did enjoy some parts of it despite the initial apprehension and multiple worries (e.g. the food, having interesting things to say, hoping that they won't get bored, did I mention the food?).

Anyway, this time around, I actually suggested that a few of us (from the supermarket where I work) could go out sometime. And believe me, it took me ages to actually work up the guts to say it out loud to one of my work friends. But sometimes we just have to go for it. Otherwise, we just end up being in the exactly same position. Perhaps not going backwards (although that was happening a little bit for me lately as I could see myself becoming more isolated and retreating into myself and the ED more), but also not moving towards recovery. 

I almost ended up saying that I can't go at the last minute because I was stressed out over the food (they decided to go to a Korean BBQ buffet >_<" ). But in the end, I went and even though the ED thoughts were there pretty much most of the time, and the food was not easy, I can honestly say I enjoyed bits of it. And for some of the time, I felt I was actually part of the occasion and joined in with the conversation, even had a few laughs.

These are the things which make recovery worth it :)

P.S. Following on from my last post, it was also nice to see what normal people eat at BBQ buffets. Let's just say there was A LOT of meat involved. And none of my friends gave a second thought to the amount they were eating. They ate because it tasted good, because they enjoyed it, because that's what you do when you go to a buffet :D