Do I really do that?

Do you sometimes feel like you're observing yourself from the outside and am surprised at what you are doing. Or more precisely, what your ED is doing? I do. 

Just this morning, I was having toast for breakfast and was just doing the usual, putting on butter and jam. And then before I knew it, I was cutting the toast up into bite size pieces. I think in the end, I cut up one piece of toast into sixteen little bits. I almost have to laugh at how ridiculous that looked. I imagine that someone else who sees me doing this would agree that this behaviour was weird. 

This time around, I didn't catch myself before I started cutting up my toast. But other times, when I'm not on total autopilot, I try to consciously think about what I am doing with my food or eating behaviours. I would imagine that I was a "normal' person looking at what I was doing, and see if that behaviour would be considered "normal" or weird. Sometimes this can help put things into perspective and stop me from doing funny things with my food.