Job interview

I am having a job interview in about 30 minutes and am a bit nervous about it. It's for a role which is similar to the office job I do now and I'm probably qualified for it. But still, I'm not super confident. I think subconsciously, I don't give it 100% when I have interviews because sometimes I worry about what would happen if I did get the job. Mind mind will be telling me, "you won't know how to do anything", "you'll make mistakes", "you'll can't meet their expectations", "you'll disappoint them", "they won't like you".

The last one's the one that comes up most. Because basically, when the situation, whatever it is, has something to do with other people, my fear is that they won't like me.

I act like I don't care about what people think about me, but I know I try hard to please others so there's less of a chance that they won't like me. So instead of doing what I want or saying what I think, I do what I think others want and act and pretend to suit the situation. Although, if I had to think for myself or just be myself, I dont think I'd have a clue as to how to do that. My whole life seems to have been about doing what's expected of me.

But job interviews are like that. Everyone's trying to sell themselves. Maybe some things in life require a bit of acting. We'll see how it goes.

Wish me luck :)